NLT Ps. 51:3 For I recognize my rebellion;
it haunts me day and night.
4 Against you, and you alone, have I sinned;
I have done what is evil in your sight.
In the title of today’s article, the first two categories don’t exist. It’s a topic we’ve covered here several times, but all sin is sin against God. It’s his holy standards that we miss, not those of our neighbor or ourselves.
It’s easy to believe your own press, or as some would say today, believe the picture you paint on Facebook. You can buy into the image that people have of you. You can decide that nine-out-of-ten is good enough. You can rationalize that the ministry is still happening, people are still getting saved, money is still being raised, the teaching is still being distributed. You don’t admit weakness, that would be letting people down.
I can only imagine what it’s like when you’re the king, especially when your nation or state is somewhat theocratic in nature. Like King David.
Psalm 51 is his particular prayer of confession. In the KJV the words are iconic,
…my sin is ever before me.
David admits he can’t run and he can’t hide from the thing he has done, or the person he has become. It’s what he sees when looks in the mirror. He owns up to it. I believe that whatever sin we give into, no matter how private, no matter how secret; it will manifest itself at some point in some more open way. Bathsheba presented a tremendous opportunity — her husband was away at the time — but it wasn’t the first time David had looked at a woman. Or perhaps not even the first time David had hatched a scheme.
You don’t become an adulterer overnight. It happens when you have failed to pre-book your choices. It happens when you’ve never recognized your susceptibility. It happens when pride gives you spiritual over-confidence.
Then, again using the KJV, he says,
Against thee, thee only, have I sinned…
Jerry Bridges says, “We never see sin aright unless we see it as against God.”
- When you maligned your co-worker, you sinned not against them, but against God
- When you cheated on that test, you sinned not against the school or the teacher, but against God
- When you falsified that document, you sinned not against the organization or the government, but against God
- When you flirted with the girl in the grocery store, you sinned not against them or against your wife, but against God
You get the pattern.
Some of the resolutions people made at the start of the year are long broken. If they carried with them moral or spiritual significance, it isn’t just a personal letdown, you don’t just fail yourself, but rather it’s sin against God.
A key verse on this topic is,
I Sam. 2:25a If one person sins against another, God may mediate for the offender; but if anyone sins against the Lord, who will intercede for them?”
The preceding verses provide the context; here’s how The Message expresses this:
22-25 By this time Eli was very old. He kept getting reports on how his sons were ripping off the people and sleeping with the women who helped out at the sanctuary. Eli took them to task: “What’s going on here? Why are you doing these things? I hear story after story of your corrupt and evil carrying on. Oh, my sons, this is not right! These are terrible reports I’m getting, stories spreading right and left among God’s people! If you sin against another person, there’s help—God’s help. But if you sin against God, who is around to help?”
Perhaps you find the meaning of this rather self-evident. Several of the study Bibles and commentaries I consulted seem to gloss over it without adding detail. The Reformation Study Bible says,
Eli’s point is that while there may be some mediation of disputes between people, when someone offends God there is no one who can intervene.
The Wycliffe Bible Commentary noted:
When a man has a complaint against another, the matter can be decided by God through his representative, the judge (Ps. 82:3), or by the sacred lot in the hand of the priest. But in a case in which God is the plaintiff, there can be no reference to a disinterested party the crime incurs the direct vengeance of heaven. (p.277)
Although the context is quite different, the language of that verse to me is always similar to Acts 5:39, “But if it is from God, you will not be able to stop these men; you will only find yourselves fighting against God.” What I get is there is a sense of God’s vested interest in certain affairs (though the verse means far more than that); it conveys the image of sitting across the table in direct confrontation with God. You don’t want that.
Heb. 10:25 For if we go on sinning willfully after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins.
Prov. 15:10 There is severe discipline for him who forsakes the way; whoever hates reproof will die.
In Daniel 9, we see Daniel praying on behalf of the nation:
“ 5 …But we have sinned and done wrong. We have rebelled against you and scorned your commands and regulations. 6 We have refused to listen to your servants the prophets, who spoke on your authority to our kings and princes and ancestors and to all the people of the land.
I can’t help but think as I read this that what he prays collectively has to begin individually, it has to begin with me. This is often contrary to our nature. We think ourselves righteous. It’s harder to pray:
But I have sinned and done wrong. I have rebelled against you and scorned your commands and regulations. I have refused to listen to your servants…
And yet, each time I ignore the commands of God, or rationalize some behavior, or allow myself some license in some area of thought or action, I am scorning God’s commands.
A pastor once said “you can’t always choose the place you live in, but you can decide where you are going to live toward.” He contrasted living toward Jerusalem with living toward Babylon.
I am not living toward Jerusalem 24/7. I am distracted by worldly ideas. If you’re a guy, are you tempted by the girl at the mall in the miniskirt? For me it’s ideas and concepts. One single phrase or sentence in an online article can be as devastating to me as the girl at the mall is to you. My worldview warps; my mindset skews.
Psalm 139 ends with the type of mind inventory I need constantly:
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life.
Psalm 51 – Worship Liturgy by Ruth Wilkinson
Show me your grace, Yahweh, according to Your faithful love;
erase my rebellion, according to Your overflowing compassion.
Wash away my guilt and cleanse me from my sin.
I know what I’ve done wrong.
I remember where I’ve missed the path.
I’ve done wrong against You – the only one who has the right to judge and to pass sentence.
But I’ve been going wrong my whole life, when what You want for me is integrity for my inner self.
And from within, You teach me deep wisdom.
You purify me.
You make me clean.
Fill my ears with gladness; fill my broken bones with joy.
Yahweh, create in me a willing heart,
an unwavering spirit,
the joy of Your salvation,
the presence of Your Spirit.
Open my mouth to teach the other rebels,
to sing Your righteousness
and to call the other sinners home to You.
Lord, break my heart and humble my spirit.
Because You don’t want just my stuff, or I’d give it.
What pleases You is the offering of a broken and humbled heart,
and what flows from there.
When my spirit is right with You, then You’ll delight in what I bring.
And You can have it all.
Today’s article includes excerpts from When You Hit Bottom, Jerry Bridges Quotations, Owning It, Sins Against Another; Against God,